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Tuesday, April 12

hais.. why... i feel so tired.. so damn tired of everything now.. why do i feel lost now.. i'm so tight up inside... just a few more weeks from now..hais... Sp and Np are killing me..FCUK OFF u all pissin' freakin' stuffs that are tryin' to destroy my days... today, when i walked under the mild rain yet a thunderstorm-y weather.. i tot to myself.. what if.. what if i'm struck my lightning and like die right now... and an answer just flashed immediately through my mind... the answer was a great, better then living.. i think i've lost all meanings to live right now.. i feel that i can really die with no regrets right now.. i'm so tired... if only i could just sleep and never be awake... praying hard that one day everything will seem crystal clear to me... feelin that i was a pain when i was brought to this earth.. pain to others and pain to myself.. i still thank my frens for being there for me.. i just wish i could lie to myself that everything was alll but a stupid dream, wakes up by that darn alarm and time for school, 2004. hais..

u lied to me
i just hate you!
there is no such thing as a fairytale life
those happiness just ain't enuff to overpower the snowballin' layers of hurt
u just sux in me
u lied to me!

dReAMt by yog3s at 10:50 PM

`` y0gg3ss