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Thursday, March 24

i 've just ruined everyone's life.. i really don know what to do next.. i'm afraid i might do another stupid mistake and hurt everyone.. i think by not hanging out anymore is a good choice for me now bah.. i don wanna hurt anymore pple.. i don wanna create anymore problems for you anymore!.. guess seeing me inside the group only brings more secrecies and awkwardness... it's not that i wanna leave.. i loove you guys forever, yes.. forever.. but my life is devasted now... all faults on me.. i seriously regretted every single moves i've done.. i'm sorry guys.. i know it's hard to not remember all these bastardy things i did.. but all i can say is i still wanna be with you guys... u guys are part of my family... the days we had since the holidays were nothing but treasures... but i've lost myself when i'm having these fantasies... haix... i started this sh!t.. i mess it up.. gone too serious, fell real hard.. fallen behind... no one pull me up in this darkened well where no sunlight would even wanna shine in. But i saw guiding lights on top.. i will struggle up.. i hope everything will get back to their normal state.. even if it costs my life.. i'm willing to pay it... serious. I REALLY WANT TO SEE ALL OF YOU AGAIN! I WANT TO SEE THE REAL SMILES AND LAUGHTERS...

xing rong--> thanks gal. that nite i was really in a total mess. u msn me and helped me alot.. u seemed to read my mind.. though u are not really sure what is going on.. but somehow u know what answers i need to hear right now.. think it's God who brought u to msn me that day... i thank you and God for bringing an unexpected fren to guide me along.. i loove that song 'breathe again' and i know what u wanna hear from me. yes.. i will breathe again! and breathe well! =

dReAMt by yog3s at 11:20 AM

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